I’m running my first triathlon; and I’m considering it my first because with only two weeks in I’ve invested too much money to not do at least four.
With a coworker and new friend I signed up for the Nautica Malibu Triathlon on September 19th and i’m racing with Team for Kids raising to fight Leukemia.
I signed up to race a few weeks prior moving to LA and after two weeks of training I’ve been mulling over exactly why I was racing. I initially had started playing with the idea of moving to LA and signing up for a triathlon in Malibu was a part of me willing a move to LA into existence. The date to financially commit was July 1 so I figured that if I didn’t move, I would have an opportunity to back out.
After moving was put into play I figured participating in the Nautica Malibu Tri would be a great way to meet people in a new city. After signing up I could see through emails from coaches and conversations with my tri mentor (shoutout to Liz!) that this group was close and joining a supportive network would only benefit me as I navigating a new city. I’ve been on a fitness kick for quite some time, however, my biggest regret over my 7 years in New York was not involving myself in a running network. As I increased my running I realized that extreme fitness goals play heavily on your emotions and your extra curricular activities so having fitness friends who I could talk to was important to me.
As part of joining Team in Training we have coaches that not only coach us through our trainings and facilitate our practice drills, but also send out motivating emails that help us prepare for the week. This week message was:
Motivation and goal settingThis is a good time in the season to start finding your motivation and setting goals for your particular race.
Motivation is something that comes from within and needs to be discovered, not invented. Perhaps you just want to get really fit and look like a badass while doing it; for others it’s more about just finishing a race or particular distance for the first time; then we have a bunch of others who are looking to eclipse personal bests at a distances or perhaps even just one of the three disciplines.
Now is the time to start thinking through all this and then talking to your coaches about your specific goals. We are getting to know you as athletes, know all the courses and have quite a bit of experience with this sort of thing.
In the very near future we’ll be talking to you each individually and making sure you have a plan – and mental state – that will get you where you want to go.
Your coaches for the distance,
Pete, Tim, Chris, Jeff and Liam
I was having a bad training day yesterday; I hadn’t made it out for a run and was feeling shitty about going to swim practice. My attitude was just as shitty when I left practice as it was when I started. I was questioning why I was doing this and starting to doubt whether or not I had made a good decision. Raising $1800 seemed like too much money, the gear required to race was becoming way more than I anticipated and I could see how my first three months of LA was going to be centered around training and not “drinking, fucking, smoking, plotting,scheming, Plotting, scheming, getting money.” That single email fucked me up because it made me realize that I hadn’t given this enough thought.
After practice I talked with my “tri crew” and called it a night, but this morning as I felt much better and realized I had a reason for doing it. While my original reasons were valid something else stuck out. Throughout my life if things weren’t easy, I didn’t do it. I wanted to become a lawyer and probably would’ve been a good one, but studying for the LSAT wasn’t easy so I switched my career path to entertainment PR, something that I could do without thinking. I stayed at my job as a case manager for 2 years because working there was easier than finding a job in PR, I left Roc Nation because returning to BET was more than easier (and more profitable) than remaining an assistant and I stayed at BET for years because figuring out what I wanted to do wasn’t as easy as I doing what everyone told me I was good at. I needed to break the habit so I realized I was running this race to teach myself discipline and commitment. Over the years I learned to be resilient and fearless, but I had also taught myself how to effectively quit and I watched myself walked away from great girls and meaningful relationships because I didn’t know how to commit to relationships that required work.
Since this blog has also been something that I failed to be discipline about and commit to for the past 7 years as I train I also intend to document this journey.
I’m 9 week away from race day and I’m committed to my finishing. I recruited a personal trainer to help me reach my fitness goals and I hope to not only learn a lot about myself, but be better once I cross the finish line in September.